@ Daphanie's

Friday, November 13, 2009

Say HI to my baby (:

I had a big quarrel with SJB last night but things are fine now.
I still remember telling myself and friends that i'm not gonna meet him today because i don't want to see him. Lol.
But end up, i still met him at CWP. Amanda darling went to meet her NYP boy. Hahahah.

Anw, today it's not only SJB who sent me home but Kriftian accompany him to send me home too. Hahahah. Krif is like our body guard. ^^ It was so fun just now, SJB wanted to walk with me along the path but i insisted that Krif should walk with us. So SJB and I just kept running around the path, like some small kid. Okay, i know i like that say doesn't seems to be funny. Nvrmind ^^

When i reached home, dad was already at home. He was quiet, he didn't ask me any questions. Then i realised a bottle of alcohol on my dining table, dad had been drinking and he seems very upset and seems to be filled with troubles. Just that he couldn't tell any of us so he drank. Normally dad don't drink at home, he won't drink infront of sis & I unless it's new year or attending weddings.

I act as if i know nothing and went straight to the room. I start to think a lot. Dad is one of the best dad. Even if the way he expressed his love to me is wrong but i know he cares for me a lot. I always say i hate him and blamed him for not giving me the kind of family that i yearn for but mum always said dad dote me the most, he gave me whatever i want and will not disappoint me. Dad quitted smoking for me, for this family. I love you dad.

When i'm young, Dad always love to bring me out. Be it to his office or to have lunch/dinner. He brought me to hilltop restaurant, to country clubs. He loves to tell people that i'm his youngest daughter. Dad is old, mum gave birth to me when she was 30plus. I'm an accident btw. People often mistaken Dad as my grandfather when i'm very young but he always tell them i'm his daughter with a very wide smile on his face. Dad doesn't have much expression, he's always so stern towards outsiders. But towards me, he would always give me the widest smile ever. I love you dad.

I rmb when i was in primary sch, i wanted to have a birthday party so much so Dad made one for me. He held it at our condo located at East coast. He entertained all my primary school friends. He made them think that i've the greatest dad. He did everything he could just to see a smile on my face. That was one of the best day i swear. I love you dad.

Dad knows that i loves dogs. There was this day when he called and asked me 'Girl ah, what if daddy say i bring a dog home?'. I rmb telling him not to lie to me yet he asked me to go down to my house lobby. And i saw him standing there with a super cute puppy. He let the puppy go and the puppy ran towards me. No words could describe how happy i am at that point of time. I brought my puppy to the playground, dad kept telling me to look after it. Despite the fact that Mum hates dogs but dad still bought it for me. Although Dad still gave it away because Mum couldn't stand having a dog in our house. But i'm still very happy Dad got it for me. I love you dad.

I know i can never get enough saying these. The list just goes on and on... I know i've changed a lot. From a daddy's girl, so obedient to someone who becomes so rebellious, someone who loves to stay out so much. Dad never blamed me. Dad never lay his fingers on me. Dad protected me when bro tried to hit me. Dad never say no to whatever i want, as long as it's within his means. Dad always saw my disappointed and upset face whenever Mum don't allow me to buy the things which i want, he would get it for me secretly. Dad has always been so generous to me. No matter how many things i've done to break his heart. He would forgive me again and again. I love you dad.

Dad had been through a lot a lot. He worked so hard to give us a comfortable life. I rmb when i wanted to work, dad was the first to disapprove. He was worried about me when i insisted on going out to work. Dad had been through many ups and downs, thick and thin. Many times, he really wished to give up. He wished to sell his company away, he wished to have a getaway but it's because of our family, that's why he didn't. A father will not break down infront of their children, he will not shed a tear infront of his family. When he does that, it really shows that he's very very tired. For everything you've done, i really love you dad.

Sorry for this super long and boring post.

❤ Yours truly,

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Nesh 21st B'day party. I've got no time to blog about this.

Meet the W35B's people, i miss them so so so much!

From left to right: Dom, Khidhir, Dzul, Arif, Me, Sally & Fareaha.

This is the 'gift' from them. Seems like those chinese wedding uh.

Last program, the dancefloor.

It was awkward initially cause the dancefloor is small and there's many strangers around.

I mean they're Nesh's friends too but...just weird!

Saw nesh? HAHAH. He's the most oustanding one lor.

Look at his white cap & white suit.

Met the guys at Lakeside, it's so near to my place ^^

Poor fareaha and some people, they sat on the train from pasir ris till lakeside.

1 hour plus !!! Omgggg. Fareaha was first and i was second to reach. So we wait for the others to arrive.

Finally all of them arrived, and we headed to the restaurant. We're the first group of friends who arrived. So we waited for like 1 hour plus before we can have dinner.

I swear his party is similar to chinese wedding. We even had to stand and applause when he walked into the restaurant with the Michael Jackson inspired suit. LOL.

We're sat located just infront of the buffet so it's super convenient for us to take food and drinks. Honestly the food is good but there's one dish which is super super spicy!

Can you imagine my classmates & I just kept taking water. Some were tearing, some were spamming drinks into their mouth. After food, we immediately stuff ice-cream in our mouth. No joke okay! HAHAHA.

I kinda like the program which they organised. Interesting ^^ Especially when they called people out and asked them questions about Nesh. Hahaha. But some were disappointed when they didn't call any RP people up on stage.

Overall, i enjoyed the night. Not because it's only Nesh's bday but it's also the night whereby i managed to see and speak to my sem1 classmates. Loves W35B.

After so long, when you realised that you're left with no choice and you start to doubt if you did the right decision initially. If you know that this is happening, do you feel like going back to the past? Actually, i don't know what i'm saying either. But.. will it be better if we can forget the present, forget about me & you, forget everything and go back to where we belong? Will it be better for everyone?

❤ Yours truly,

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Hi. New media module today, learn how to make a successful blog. Muahahaha. And i'm blogging now. LOL.

12 tips to make a good blog.
•Content is King
•Lists, Tests, Bullet points
•Stay focused
•Ask questions
•Be friendly
•Be controversial
•Link to other blogs
•Free stuffs
•Keep yourself out of it
•Strive for perfection
•Limit self-promotion
•No blog is a island

Hehe, don't understand right. Actually i also don't. LOL. But that was my slide and i managed to explain it, as if i totally understand everything. But actually i understand 80% of it la.

New media UT just now. Still quite okay. Enough time for me.

Okay, now i understand why my god-brother(s) and friends told me poly friends can't be trusted. I always thought it's just their point of view but things which happened recently really made me think a lot. And now, i really understand why they told me this.

In poly, is there really such think as friends? Or it's just a title. When things happened, people start to push blame around or act like they're not involved. Worst case, is when they seems to be the victim instead. This is how realistic people are.

I've seen a lot, be it heard by friends or experienced it myself. I always tell myself i'm no longer in secondary school. I should stop having those attitude which i had in the past. But sometimes people put words in your mouth and you seems to be the bad guy instead. So tell me, is it wrong to thrash things out and get the facts right?

This is what i call realistic. People will make use of you whenever is needed and when they don't need, they can come up with thousands of excuses to shake you off. Too many people are wearing on a fake mask. You can't differentiate who's true to you anymore.

❤ Yours truly,

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

This picture is taken quite some time ago. During Dawn's bday.
I'm not very close with classmates still.

Today is one of the worst day ever. I really meant it.

First, i couldn't sign in to MSN from morning till 11am. Stupid messenger INSISTED that i should install the latest version in order to let me sign in. So i got no choice but to install yet the installation took hours -.- Wanted to sign in Ebuddy also lag. Use internet also lag. Do research also lag.

Second, Cognitive module today and it's a relief faci who came in. I'm allocated to another group which i'm glad. And we always like to sabo one another to be the leader and script. So this time round, my group sabo me to be leader. My relief faci has high expectation on leaders. He expect all leaders to allocate work for the team members. I don't do that because i think leader is just a name, i think we're all equal and i think we should discuss and do research together. I don't want to be the oh-so-bossy kind of person and ask my team members to do this & that.

Anw, all that wasn't the main point. Worksheet is really confusing. Our team was slower compared to the others. So he said that we didn't have team work etc. It's very annoying to hear this when you're already trying so hard to understand the questions in worksheet yet this is what your faci said. He mentioned if there's anything, he will look for the leader. And yes, i got aimed by him -.- So i decided to do the research, do the ppt with the help of my friend (Junkai). Krif and Amanda sacrifice almost half of their lunch break just to accompany Junkai. Without their help, i would probably died because i don't understand at all !!! Whereas my teammates did the worksheet. Thank god i've good teammates who initiate to do the worksheet.

Third, i got mistaken to be someone's girlfriend. When it is so O.B.V.I.O.U.S that it's not me. Are you blind or something? I don't like to be a topic among others especially to people who are not even close to me. They know nothing about me.

And there's fourth to come which i guess i'll know it later on. The feeling of being accused just sucks.

I couldn't care much, i'm just gonna think that i'm watching movie tmr with the usual people. We're gonna watch paranormal activity (think this is the title?) LOL. Anw, i'm giving SJB last warning. No more hiding behind the bag. Please don't be like a girl, even a girl will not be scared until like this. Sibei xia shuay one lor. I should have take a picture of it the previous time. Last warning hor!

❤ Yours truly,

Monday, November 9, 2009

Overdued post. 06/11/09, friday ^^

Went over to Jiayi's place to do Bento box. It's our first attempt!

I was afraid that it will turn out to be unsuccessful but as i mentioned earlier on,

WE DID IT !!! Yay ~~ *Thumbs up!*

2 hours of shopping in cold storage and daiso + 5 hours of cooking in kitchen.

Presenting to you, is all our ingredients !!!

This is a very cute divider which we bought from daiso. Only 2bucks.

And it's so cute ! We use it to seperate the onigiri.

HAHAHA And we did some silly things in Daiso.

Initially the cover of our bento box was this (below) which is the checkered.

Jiayi & I find it ugly so we took other covers to exchange with this. LOL.

I seems so proud to blog out. But it's super funny!

We're like 'Faster faster, later ppl walk pass.'

So this is the strawberry cover we got instead. Much cuterrrrr.

We also did the same for this. This is used to tighten up the bento box.

But the colour given are black, brown, green, red and white.

So if we bought one set, either Esther, Jiayi or I got to sacrifice and take the ugly colour.

So we took 3 packets and change too. The right one, black & white, is what we bought.

Start cutting cucumber and carrot. Jiayi was very worried that i might cut myself.

HAHAHA, i know i'm not the cooking type of girl.

But hey, i did it okay! LOL.

After hours of cutting, cooking and boiling. Finally we did some for ourselves to eat.

Like what Jiayi said, don't underestimate the power of this.

All of us love it. It's awesome !

And we start to pack them into the box.

Look at this 'octopus' look alike. It's actually hotdog but we stick with sesame seeds.

DAMN CUTE RIGHT !!!! HAHAHAH.

That's esther with the fake mini 'octopus'.

This is my first onigiri ^^ It look pretty sucks. HAHA. Not done yet what.

Guess it look much better with the smile. Hahaha.

Adding blusher to it. I had a hard time doing it okay! Like every 5 mins do the eye.

And tadahhhh ! The end product. My first successful onigiri! Damn cute hor.

And this is my second onigiri. HAHAHAHA.

Honestly, i think this is much cuter than the previous one. Lol.

Esther's first onigiri. Cute also !

Then add on blusher but esther apply very little. Look so weird.

Like 2 big dots sia. Hahahaha.

My bento ! Not complete yet.

And here's Esther's 2nd onigiri. This one so ugly lor. LOL.

Seeeee! Look like the pringles, that logo or uncle. Whatever it is called. HAHA.

But quite cute la. Look abit pervertic only. HAHAHAHA.

This is Jiayi's !!! Look at her rabbit. So cute right.

Her final product ! :D

Look at the amount of rice we cooked! It's a meal for 10 people !!!!

But we don't have enough ingredient. LOL.

So end up, i got to roll 3/4 of it up to a ball and force myself to eat.

I eat like half of it and threw it away. Imagine i finish everything up, i think i one month no need eat rice already. LOL.

My final bento box !

And tadahhhhhh ~~ After all the hard work.

:D :D

Hopefully, i can have another cooking or baking session with them. With that lazy Minming also okay!

Today woke up at 6am because lazy Minming suggested for breakfast. This girl will only wake up on time when there's food. Ask her go school on time, very difficult one. HAHA. So we went over to CWP mac to have breakfast. Jiayi didn't join us cause she couldn't wake up on time. Everytime is either Jiayi or Minming missing. So difficult to go out tgt is it !!!!

We thought we're still early but when we reached school it was 8.31am ! I mean when we're at W1.

So we thought we're late and decided to go up to class slowly. Who knows Minming & I are not counted late. I'm not sure about Esther.

Anw, after school i'm supposed to go Pacific Centre, my ex-workplace HQ to collect things.

But i don't know what's wrong with me again, i felt nauseous and giddy. While walking halfway, i told SJB that i was feeling very unwell. So we went over to the benches near 7-11 to sit down. Whereas SJB got me water, sweets & sour plum. But it didn't work. I tried to vomit but i couldn't. The feeling really sucks.

So I called them up to let them know i couldn't make it. And we went over to CWP for lunch/dinner. I guess it's because i didn't had any meals after my breakfast that's why my body couldn't take it.

New media UT on wednesday :(

I don't know why i don't have much motivation to go school now.

I feel the pain. It hurts me more to hurt you. Sometimes i wonder, if time could rewind. Will you still make the same decision as what you did back then?

❤ Yours truly,